The Starring Role

MAP

Okay – we’re here on this rock for an experience.  Now what?

You tell me.  You are under the impression I have all the answers and you don’t.  If you behave how I want you to behave then I’ll give you the answers.

Remind you of anything?

Most relationships.

Exactly.  You have this give-and-take, tit-for-tat relationship process worked out amongst you so you have passed on that quality or behavior to me.

After all, if I am so great what could I possibly want from you? 

Your allegiance?  Your unwavering, undying trust?  For you to follow me blindly without questioning?

The answer is none of the above.  I want nothing from you.  What could I possibly want or need if I am everything?

That makes it tough for you, to figure out what you can give to someone or something that has everything.

The answer to me is the same as for that hard-to-buy-for person on your Christmas list – give yourself, by being yourself.

That is all you can do and probably one of the toughest things you’ll ever have to do.

You can’t buy you at the store or order yourself online.

You can only find you right where you are.

And sometimes you don’t like what you see.

Change that.

For only you can.

That’s why surrounding yourself with things or losing yourself in other people doesn’t work.

You can only find you right where you are.

Stop bartering with yourself and others.  You won’t find what you are looking for and you certainly won’t find anything I want or need.

Now all you have to do is recognize that you are me and don’t have anything to want or need either.

It’s all right here wrapped up with a bow in a package called You.

And you get to determine what’s inside.  And you get to change what’s inside too.

I don’t need you to sacrifice – you or anything else.

You clued in a long long time ago that sacrificing lambs, goats and young female virgins – all that you thought was innocent – did not do any good.

But you haven’t let go of the notion to stop sacrificing yourself.

It won’t do you any good.  You know that.

Deeply.

I do not have a list nor am I checking it twice – that is another manifestation of your ideas on wrong and right, worthy and unworthy.

Worthy and unworthy of what?

Really – think about that.

What made you come up with the idea of worthiness, value and sacrifice?

Just whose good books are you trying to get into?

Might as well be Santa Claus’ books because I don’t have any.  Never have, never will.

You are the only ones judging yourselves.  That is how you determine who you are, how you experience yourself, how you make decisions, and change.

You are the ones holding the books.  Stop pretending me, Santa or someone else is judging you and keeping the score.

That is called projection.

Own it.  Take it back.  Celebrate you are the one judging you. It’s much easier to know what’s on the scorecard that way.

“Do unto others as you would have them do unto you” is all about and only about you defining your own moral compass, who you are and who you aren’t, what you will do and not do.

Get a good hold on that – this life you are living is all about you, created by you, played out by you and judged by you.

This is what you came here to experience.

Is that not the greatest form of freedom, that freedom that you seek?

Is that not the ultimate creative control?

And that is so large and scary to you, you found ways to make yourself, the task, small, much smaller than you are.

Make some rules to create boundaries, pretend they were put in place by someone else, give them the power to say what’s right and wrong so you don’t have to.

And on and on.

Do you see all the ways you have gone unconscious, all the ways you purposefully stopped making decisions for yourself, all the ways you gave up creative control?

And now you are at the point you want it back.  You want what you’ve always had.

That too is part of this game.  You designed it this way.

Be glad you are here and know enough to see what’s going on.

You are rubbing the sleep away from your own eyes – only you.